A heart can only be so sad

Rule: Sorrow affects your whole being; your heart has a problem coping and your breathing is affected.
Exceptions: When you cannot cope with it - and dies of a broken heart.

Earlier this year I read, as a news piece, that there really is a disease called "broken heart" and that mostly women are affected. They mourn till they die.

And that is news...before it was only called so because everyone had seen it happen but of course the scientists had to find a way to prove it.

I have been so sad this week after receiving news so bad that my whole being has slowed down.
My breathing is heavy, my heart is almost painfully beating away. My throat, my eyes itch for crying and shouting and I can hear myself groan when I do not control myself. And the worst thing, not being able to show it properly.

I do admire societies where you dress in black, pour ashes over your head, rip your clothes - all to show that you are mourning. here it is all so calm, so controlled and all that anguish has to stay inside my body.

People can be so evil and deceiving but I do belive that they do not understand how much they destroy with their actions. It is like a stone thrown in the water, you can see how the whole sea changes by that single blow.